Sunday, February 7, 2010

Welll we are at the end of the Epic blizzard. The media just eats this stuff up. At my boyfriends house we did not get as much as my mother about 40 minutes north of here. At some point today we need to go shovel out the driveway. I think she got about 25 inches, yikes! I felt a little guilty getting snowed in here but I made sure she had plenty of food. I started a big pot of chili Friday before I left for work. I also checked in with her often. I am always torn trying to have my own life and feeling responsible for my mother and her happiness. I feel like I have a second chance at life and happiness after my divorce but feel such a responisbilty , probably because she is so fragile and not as independent as I am. She wants me to have my own life and is happy I found someone but I know she is lonley. Everyone tells me not to feel guilty and that I am doing a good thing by even living there and making sure she has what she needs. It will always be a struggle I can only do the best I can in between school , work and building a new life for myself. We signed her up for a senior center so she can have more social interaction hopefully the weather will improve so she can actually get out and do stuff. Well I will be very sore tomorrow from all the shoveling we will be doing. It is good exercise anyway.

1 comment:

  1. Terri--hi! Wow. This is so thoughtful...what an honest post, so enjoyable to read. I think you are totally on the right track in getting some interaction for your mom---so much is depending on you--it's overwhelming! The weather should break soon...after all, it IS February! :) I wish you luck and focus and a light heart as you work to create balance in your life!

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