new outlook

Well somewhere along the way I started to feel less guilty about wanting and having my own life. I make sure mom has what she needs and spend some time talking with her before I lock myself in my room to do home work. When I am spending more and more time at my boyfriends house I am not feeling as guily not being home with mom. I realize I was not going to live there forever anyway. It was supposed to be temporary. She does need me to be close thought. Then I think back to my grandmother after my grandfather died. She was alone a lot. My parents tried to go visit every weekend and if she needed anything they would get it for her, but their whole lives did not revolve around her. Just because I don't have a family with kids doesn't mean my life is any less important. I feel like a light bulb went off. I was so consumed with taking care of mom and now I am enjoying my new life that I am building. Of course next week I could be all anxious and overwhelmed again but that is life.